Holding it Together

Holding it Together - Barely

MountainMan 2011

Karen rocked her first Half!

Good news:

I am still alive!

Taper is just around the corner!

I have never been more ready for a taper than right now!

Usually I am not a fan of taking it easy

but after the many smash festivities the last few weeks

my body is trying hard to keep it together!

Since I am either taking care of the kids,

training, sleeping, or eating, there has been no time

for a decent MountainMan race report.

Are you wondering

why I still manage to read other people's blogs

and find time for Facebook?

I can do those things while holding a spoon and stuffing my mouth.

That's why.

Oh, and I banned myself from using the computer

while taking an ice bath.

If I were able to type in the tub,

I could've written 10 race reports by now.

My body is hanging in there.

My mind, however, is about to lose it.

I must have left a few too many brain cells on the pavement lately.

I can't think.

I can't remember.

I can't function.

Basic tasks like taking a shower, going to the grocery store,

making lunch, emptying the dish washer

seem to be unsurmountable.

How can I muster up enough energy for a 4 hour brick

but having to take out the garbage

makes me want to cry?

Ah! The joys of training!

You've got to love it!

And I do - I love it.

But - at the same time -

I can't wait for this race to be over!

I need my life back!

Comments

Jamie Pearson said…

Hey I feel the same way but for a different reason. I get to see you in a week. And yeah about seeing you...we should figure out a plan, not to make you have to think or anything.

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